What do I expect from a church? Fellowship, friends, teaching,
accountability, challenges, order, evangelism, outreach, inspiration,
entertainment? Those are some of the things that came to mind.
As the song says "Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, Prone to leave the
God I love." So I'll confess my flesh wants to run away. Sometimes
daily. I grew up in church, we have a history. its a part of me, and I
miss it when I'm not there.
God has put me in my place recently and reminded me that its not about
Jason. A few weeks ago I was ready to run away from village group and
EV. But I know that Life in Christ is more than me, myself, and I. I'm
not meant to be a cave dweller. I've tried that, it doesn’t work for
me. I am prideful. Especially when it comes to Jesus. I want things my
way, If they aren't my way I usually run away. But Christ says the
last will be first. Pride is a sin i struggle with, I realize that I
have to keep it in check. He's still working on me with that one. As
far as what Church is all about. There has to be a focus on Christ
first. In reality churches are flawed. Because humans are flawed.
And if your looking for a perfect church don't go cause you'll ruin it.
So, we have this flawed nature, but a perfect God. And I think in
all that we as a body press on for the greater good. I see room for
improvement. Yes. But I feel The lord says to me. serve me more and
worry less about what you think others should do.
I am thankful
that by grace God keeps me in his hand. And I'm thankful for EV and
EVSSVG. My birthday is coming up, so as history repeats itself it seems
time again for the yearly reflection. This last year has been tough.
I've failed plenty, but have also won many battles and been blessed
beyond this stress. People I never knew have become family. The
wandering spirit is not as loud these days. I feel loved. Thank you for
that. I love you guys. Honestly. I know God has me here for a
reason. I look forward to our next meeting where I can hear about all
the crazy things God is doing in your life.
