When I was dating a girl who lived far a way we tried to never say goodbye. It felt for me as a young person in love that we were saying its over and I'm never going to see you again. When a relationship changes goodbyes are hard. I have basically been in 2 relationships. Both ended badly. But as time goes on the process continues. So this is my goodbye letter to my wife. Its time to say goodbye.
I have been living by myself for over 7 months now.
Goodbye my Beloved.
Goodbye to my friend. Our relationship began with conversations. Talks late at night, laughter and impromptu meetings in the park or walks around campus. We became friends. When something good happened I wanted to tell her. When I had a dollar for coffee she was invited. From gatherings to outings to trips around town. Our friendship was strong. I no longer have her as my friend.
When I decided to become exclusive with her I knew that I loved her without a doubt.
Goodbye to exclusivity. She was mine and I was her. We did everything together. We were a pair. We were happy at that time. Goodbye to having somebody to live life with. Goodbye to scavenger hunts and trips to the melting pot
Goodbye to marriage. A life with a companion and feeling that You would have somebody to the end is a rare thing. Not all are granted this blessing.
Goodbye to my wife. A wife is a needful helper, a cheer leader, an encouraging force and A co-pilot. I no longer have a wife
Goodbye to the family. Being accepted into a new family is a great thing. You learn how to be around a whole set of new people. You are part of the family and that makes you part of something better. Family vacations, dinners, naps on the couch. Goodbye to the family. I miss you.
Goodbye to pc church. I joined the PCC, married into it, baptized, became a deacon. and became part of it. I was full in. I was accepted into a new family and was part of something better. I can no longer be a part of that. I miss my brothers and sisters and elders of PCC.
Goodbye to love. I cannot tell you what makes somebody love somebody else. Its a combination of a million little things. I loved my wife. I no longer love my wife. Goodbye to love
Goodbye to daughters, and the joy of family. I will never be the same to my daughter. I will not be able to raise her in union anymore. I will always be a father but I will also always be something else. I no longer have the joy of having a family with my wife and daughter. I love my daughter. I am learning the new motions of being a separated dad.
Goodbye to identity. I was her husband. That was who I was. I am no longer that.
Goodbye to being in a relationship. Single is a scary word. I think before I met her I was single for at least 4 years. I don't know how to date or attract women. Its something I want but Its not an overwhelming drive in me.
Goodbye my beloved.
JM
1st john 4: 8,16 "The person who does not love does not know God, because God is love. 16 And we have come to know and to believe the love that God has in us. God is love, and the one who resides in love resides in God, and God resides in him."
