I never called her Becca but plenty did. It was always Rebecca to me. I think that sums up who and what she was for me and who and what I was for her. She was my lifesaverz in a sea of life. Our Relationship started like it ended. One moment before and One moment after. We met on a dating app and had our 1st IP meeting at Abes on Lincoln. I'm still not really sure what she saw in me. I was barely working by the outlooks I didn't really have it all together. She had a house and a good job and a solid church life. She had it together. But with her it was easy. Fun and enjoyment was first on our list. To give you an idea our second date was for Trivia. Our team name was waiting for someone, she picked it since I got there 2nd. We won btw. She was probably the smartest person I knew. But I also liked to tell her she was the smartest person in a village of idots, due to her growing up in Hardeeville which wasn't known for their intellect.
Our humor was dark and twisty, love and extravagant. She opened me up to happy living and sucess.
I knew the day I met with H to go over papers for my divorce finally I was going to marry Rebecca. it took sometime for that to happen. I don't know what I was waiting for. But she stayed by my side through hard times, fun times and interesting times. Ealy in 2018 She told me she was getting married in October. ( with or without me) She pulled me along and we began the second Chapter of our life. Our Dating life was fun, passionate, and a growing time for me. She was my rock and I was her muse. I allowed her to show her real side. I gave her Selah, I provided her love.
Have you Ever missed the Bus in the rain, But it made you laugh to spend time with her Again
Rebecca had a smile that would light up the room. She was a doer, and a helper. She helped me. I was not easy for her. I do feel like I Failed her a lot. In 2021 everything was changing from covid to Tods Death, to her death in the fall of 2021
Wash Rinse Repeat
I lost my rock, my joy, my heart, my friend, my wife, my lover, my guide, my Rebecca.
There are moments when the veil is thin and I feel her Lime Green presence of Joy. I remember when she found me at my lowest, celebrated my victories, and provided me love.
I miss her. I miss taking about nerdy stuff, online memes, and complicated things. I miss her jokes and her spirit.
But she left me better than she found me. I find her in surpassing places. I see her in the wind. I feel her in a good meal or a soft sunset. And I strive to be the man who she thought I was.
